somewhere around the world their is a right man for every girl....

What a legendary quote to be shared, I'm currently watching a TCM and this really classical movie by Gene Kelly. I adore this type of movies, the dancing and singing.

Classes has just recently started, everything seems to be abnormally normal; everything fits perfectly into the puzzle piece. Yet its so disturbing, a big part of the picture continues to lack... Again this morning, I had a terrible dream... I almost cried, but instead I just prayed soon after I awoke from sleep. I talked to God continuously as I calmed down.

I just closed the TV. I feel like a half empty glass...

Today feels like a disaster that just be came a miracle and still made its way as a pretty normal day; nonetheless even if that event happen it turned out to be something I can again keep as an experience. Now I'm starting to bore myself, the fact that I'm yawning...

This afternoon, I was telling myself how I can repay my parents back... since their starting to ask for refunds and would want them to pay them back... I feel so abandoned.. as if every emotion has been stripped off from my entire human system. Like everything that is being thrown at me, is ricocheting on its own. 

No Facebook. No Yahoo Messenger. No Games. No Boyfriend. Less Cellphone.

I'm not actually angry at a certain person, but instead I'm angry at myself... I feel like I'm destroying myself, and I'm also stopping myself from doing it.

change... 


how self destructive... I beg not to be bi-polar, I beg not to be narcissistic, I beg not to be a patriot, I beg not to be pessimistic. I beg not to feel immune.. 


I close my eyes, and future career is what is playing inside my head.. return the money... parents... debts.. never ending problems.

Dear God,
I pray that you give me grace, I don't want my old life back. But instead, I pray for something better than it... Thank you and I love you.