It's the time of the month

Obviously I have my period, and I just finished *sobbing* about something my boyfriend and I talked about. Honestly, I don't know what to do anymore; my patience is running dry and I don't know how to insert a coin in a broken machine. He makes me sound that I'm a "soul less" person, now I couldn't understand how my life is suppose to work out.

Oppress is the word that he refers to me; a person who doesn't understand other people's feeling. I need to help myself; "I need to carve in my heart" that everything is just simple. As how they say it; "simple as a pie".

My sensitivity is growing; the person whom I used to be. Seemed to be lost; long lost and gone, I don't know which planet she went to. Maybe my best friend was right. that I was just putting a fake mask on "strong mask" but honestly I'm just a weak person. It wasn't just one person who told me that. I feel so confused and lost, and its starting to be my fault for being the person who I am. I am dumbstruck; yes! I am blind. I am weak. The person who I was 4 years ago was gone.

I feel hallow within, my soul needs to reinvent itself from being weak. Slowly, I will make this new person. Hopefully it will stand up on its own feet...

I will survive; I'm torn into pieces.

My half, might over power me. I used to be strong; now where is she?