A Not so Sugar Coated Life

Am I trying to hard to overcome this battle? I've been procrastinating, its been 3months ever since I've arrived home. I haven't blogged for almost two months... I feel so lost and overwhelmed, majority of the places I've visited has left a memory from the past.

Deep inside me, I know I feel better. More relaxed and probably more eased compared to before, I feel like I'm haunting myself with this random flashbacks... All of a sudden, my dreams feel like there crashing down and being flush down the drain.

I had a plan, a plan to write a Letter for my future husband, stating random facts about whats happening to my darkest time. I've finished two books over the course of two weeks, and I've been dilly dallying too. I've been forgetting some details too lately... :c I feel anxious that I'm losing touch of my good memory.

--My laptop too is almost giving up on me..

I need to crash.. time is too limited for me to recap the recent events in my life...

I need to focus, but probably I am trying too much that I'm losing grip on to what I should do first..