it's my life's anniversary

So it's been a really long time since my last post... such controversy has happened in my life that it feels like I'm burning some time but I beg not to argue with myself in opposing what's really in store for me. While wasting time, I haven't been really honest with myself and haven't straighten up some kinks up my sleeve not that I've been quite a player or anything. God only knows how semi pathetically clean and bare I am this couple of months. It's almost a two year mark now to be exact, pretty much proud of being a celibate until this stage even if a lot of people around me are a bit the bad influence [very thankful of the Lord] twenty three is now permanently the mark I carry. I guess today's a very special for me the fact that I was conceive this exact day twenty four years ago... Dear Lord God, I am very Thankful of my parents. I may seem to look unhappy but perhaps this is just a little sacrifice I would have to shoulder by myself. Greetings from a lot of thoughtful people gave me a good security that I still had a handful of good individuals around me...

Happy twenty third to me.


bisous

Dear Blog,

Its been awhile... or should I say its been sometime? Haven't been really opening you since I dont know when--- and that was like two months ago and actually opened you in a BB. *such a hassle typing in a tiny claustrophobic keyboard* 

Moving on, TODAY! yes today, was a very tiring day indeed! What did I do? Applied for several jobs in attempt to find my DREAM job which is... (croak background) dang! I am seriously dumb founded, I'm starting to get a very anxious feeling- The feeling of the lone ranger! Oh please no, thats the least thing I would want to happen to me. The fact that I'm a self professed "anti social" would make it even worst... ANYWAYS, by the end of the night I got stuck with this website on applying as an "au pair" am I sensing a question mark in your face? Well to enlighten you, an au pair  is actually a "nanny" more formal term they would use to address a nanny. Nevertheless, you might think WHY THE HELL would she should apply as one? (contemplating her words) 

Most probably because its one of the few things in life I would want to fulfill, plus I'm pretty young should I say. I wouldn't really want to experience being a nanny if I'm older than of my present age, you know what am saying? (no?) fair enough, well I'm still thinking about it.... I guess this whole thing about being a "butler" crap is driving me nuts again. How I easily get indoctrinated with books, [whispers, But I love books] 

I feel like crap, my back hurts from sitting the whole day in front of the laptop fixating on finding a real job. I still have approximately three months to go before I officially graduate from college, what a total drag indeed. [inserts image: sitting beside a pool] 

Anyways, I'm officially crashing.. My throat is really figuratively being scraped with a fish scaler... *coughs like a baby* Calling it a night. 

Post- Happy New Year! 

Hoping for the best this year. got tons to update you with my life. :)

Bonne Chance