A Not so Sugar Coated Life

What can I contribute to human society, aside from being a part of the whole ecosytem? I ask myself everytime how can I discover my self better, will I be stuck in this state. Rather I dwell upon this irrelevant thoughts, thinking they give entertainment in one's self. I believe that I'm contended with just being the low and self centered individual since causing pain to others brings joy to my life.. Yet I beg to fight the demons inside of me. Which resulted to self isolation and boredom. More time to think over issues, I can't believe how classical music calms me down. Problems, troubles, hurdles.. Just a couple of months to go and I'm off this neat place again, God I will continue to abdide by your ways. I know that with your great power nothing will be impossible. Ciao bella