Epitome of a College student

Who are the students? What kind of students walks and talks at the same time dresses improperly. Why would your parents pay up to 300 thousands pesos per year if you would not live up to a school with "high standards". It it not necessarily that students would have to conform on what is the "perfect hotel student" but when you decided to work in the Hospitality Industry this is who we are, the image of clean and pleasant looking people and not those rugrats who just came out of High School and is not yet ready to let go of their old ways. Seniors are one of the perfect examples of a role model, they may not always be poised and polished but like any freshmen who just graduated from high school; they worked hard to be able to let the "custom" of what the school should have. When you are a college student, you don't bring your old "you" to college what usually happens is you turn into a butterfly which most of the freshmen should be doing and not to necessarily act "cool" just to fit-in in a new school. Leave the old habits behind and start new and fresh, leave the vandalism of chairs and exchanging curses with your fellow classmate. At the same time, Seniors should be always be respected as a sign of seniority and at the same time being able to know who can help you. College is not a way where you can start having vices, college is one of your greatest 4 years to be able to collect those different moments. Eventually you conform but you don't really stay long for something you want to do "experimental".

I am pretty much yawning at the moment because of tiredness, je suis très fatigués et endormis....

CLosure

I can't imagine how long it has been, for that person to just surprise attack me and say "sorry" from the deepest weepest part of his heart. Which I really don't know how to explain the weirdness I can feel, anyways I feel that he is pretty much not a threat which is great. Its just that its pretty weird for someone to just pop out.

At least, I was able to live in this kind of world and did not fail to see a man who was "sincere" and does let go of his Pride at times.

Earlier at our school cafeteria (after French Kitchen) it was pretty funky what a schoolmate of ours mentioned: that Alpha male of the group "Amogs" as how he called it. [my lunch was Lamb, yum yum GAME-y flavor] And it was pretty funny, because I think my boyfriend is quite like that which I'm also proud of it. *smile smile* Being this competitive "I'm the boss attitude" haha! Fun fun!

Jumping through the holes; when I got home from dropping my boyfriend's vest at his house and back to my place. There were two freaking Gold cars that didn't stop; and They were just totally wrong which is why I was sooo effing pissed about it! SFM!! and the last car just stared at me, and I just wanted to give him the "middle finger" but I was just furious and let it go. DAMN! I hate drivers who can't OBEY "stop light" laws. WTF!

Anyways... jumping again... kitchen class today was fun, because we made "Souffle" cheese that is. Which was great because I now know how to make one, but I can't because if your Oven is not nice it wont really rise... DAMN IT! I remembered again; I want a pink kitchenaid and a cocotte. OOOOH~ I love cooking, with all the nice GADGETS! can't wait to have a BIGGER and nicer kitchen! :]

damn' I feel like sleeping early because I don't know what else to do, aside from checking mail and partially doing facebook and plurk. Plus, at least I do get to use my blog again for some reason. I miss my boyfriend, he has got to stop going home late. I pity him for going to school late and for going home late at the same time, I hope he'll be okey sill. It worries me so much that I don't know what else to think about that I get bored because I don't see him. sob sob~ Thats why I'll play with my pet bird "Cresta" she is so cute and noisy and lovable.

GOTTA GO!! My eyes are sleepy, and I hope my brother wont use much of my gas.. DAMN! :] anyhoo, Good night~ Bonne nuit!

Is officially sleepy already!

Gooze night~ feels so damn tire.. yawn yawn!!!

:[ boyfriend did not text me the whole day.. and he is not yet at home... :[

Not nice..

sleepy sleepy yawn yawn.

PRALINES....

I dreamed of chocolates.... yum yum yum yum...

oh so heavenly!

I hope someone brings me home a box of Japanese pralines. :0


nyum nyum nyum...

French macaroooooooon.... SOOO Ashamed.

LOL!!! That darn..... :]

I love you sweetie pi!


SOOOO tired.... but enjoyed...

feels so random.. crapp! Need to wake up early tomorrow... need to relax... :[


sad sad sad.... alone~


bonne nuit~

Re-opening of classes

I'm writing because school is starting again and I'm guessing I wont be able to write much this coming months. But I hope I can, I miss doing things that I think have forgotten or maybe taken for granted such as my old hobbies like:

• crochet (sounds like a grandma but I enjoyed that)
• making origami stars
• printing pictures
• taking pictures with friends
• reading romantic books
• watching anime/korean novelas
• hanging out with friends
• going to mall
• shopping
• playing online games, psp, arcade games

and many more....

I was thinking of many things this morning, our missing dog, my dad, some weird random storm from my dream, also our van couldn't fit in a tiny street (from my dream also). Lastly my mom being alone again for 2 months without my dad. It's pretty cheesy that they are having a long distance relationship, while half of her life her husband is abroad making money and striving for a living. (I'll end it there because I don't want it to be dramatic)

And so I was thinking about us and sherard, how we can work that out in our life? Do we surpass this stage that we are young and that the old people think we would still meet other people. While the both of us think that were settled for each other already? Even if we fight big time, in the end we still love each other. Especially when one doesn't give up the fight. But not to be cheesy, I've always seen him as my husband already even though we have silly little problems with each other. Can we do it till 10 years and still love each other and break that *rule and cliche* about relationships?

This is not helping, I need to concentrate on school first and to graduate in my expensive school.. I need to prove lots of things in my family.. That I will face the path that I decided with! I should also probably be throwing some bad attitudes that I have.

Improvements:

• sleep early
• do not spend money on unneccessary wants
• control your anger *do not let sherard provoke you*
• always agree to what your boyfriend says, tell him also to listen to your side
• cheer him up when he is upset with you, just a simple I love you will do.
• save money for future needs
• bring back some old *understanding you*
• continue to tell the truth
• control level/tone of voice when talking to your mother
• understand other innocent people *they too have reasons*
• needs to plan for the future
• study hard for this semester; have a high grade in both kitchen class
• forget the past and never regret it
  

Darn, this sounds like a resolution... How cliche~ I better go to sleep! My bed awaits me, and school awaits me tomorrow. I pray that the "swine flu" stops already and that it will finally be over.

Güt natch!

who wins? who loses?

Batman "Dark Knight" Because sometimes the truth isn’t good enough, sometimes people deserve more, sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded.

After watching that film *dark knight*, and several hours before: driving home from the mall and getting stressed with the traffic resulting to temporary grouchiness and headache cause by walking around the mall for 6 hours sums up to the person that I am right now.

I feel nauseated added by this melancholic feeling due to the lost of our dear poodle. How to cure this temporary sickness? "SLEEP"

I miss Sherard, and this kind of time oh how I wished that I could instantly teleport him in my arms and cry in his shoulders till I fall asleep. My consolation is that I get to see my lovely friends and enjoyed the whole day with them again, I missed them just like how I miss my dear sherard. I also miss playing ragnarok, pet society, sims, restaurant city, reading books continuously, playing with the lovebirds and most of all seeing kiyu. But in return, I get to have a new pet: named "Cresta"

I feel sad for losing kiyu, but I know and I will pray he will be okey. It's pretty hard when you don't always get what you want. Because as they say; life is like a rock "its hard". If my other guy best friend would be reading this right now, he would totally disagree with me and would just tell me that I am "overreacting". I apologize to the world where I live in that I have continuously grown sensitive to the point that Sherard hates it already.

I need to find ways to be come stronger, more wiser... (my head is throbbing and that is a bad sign) My brain wants to sleep already and I haven't really gone to what my point in this entry.

Why do all (most of it) things have to end "sad"? It's always a two-way street, I remember I used to be a good girl a; person who can think straight believe in something. Now, I'm lost. I can't find the right way or decide whether to believe on what I think was true. Sherard told me, "that's such a small thing, why are you mad" -I never realized that "Truth" was a small thing.

I always wanted to cry; when someone tells me I'm wrong even though I know I'm right. That in the end "I am right" how can other people not trust me. They have instincts... I have instincts... And so they say; they trust you... Such a powerful meaning for a 5 letter word.

Who wins in the end? The weak one or the stronger one? Who loses the fight?

We were born to choose, chances are not options we chose our destiny. Who gave each and one of us "The RIGHT" to judge? No one... but Him.


I'll be meeting with my orgmates again tomorrow, and I think its another day of "putting a fake mask again"

I promised myself to change for the better, to prove Sherard that I can also be good at something. And for him to not look onto my flaws...

Sleep tight Lyle

P.S.
I hope my brother will be well in his studies, and that he will never give up on something unless he has already done it. I pray for my love ones to be fine and happy..

I entrust all my worries up above.. I believe in You and I trust You.

Come back Kiyu~

Mood: head throbbing, about to fall alseep.