A Not so Sugar Coated Life

Idiocy is for the naive..

Again, here I am... with bare emotions. just finished yawning- teary eyed. Everyday I continue to believe that everything will be alright, even if rapture is near- or should I say soon to come..

Is death better than waiting for the apocalypse?
I remember telling my friend last night that I miss talking to someone, miss talking to a person whom I can confine my pain too.. Most of the time, I keep myself busy. Its not that its against my will, but instead I still pursue into putting my efforts into it. Having a boyfriend is still a long term goal for me...

After this semester, I'm planning to disappear again... Its an actual harsh decision, I've lost hope and is not expecting anymore. Tribulation I encounter everyday is a struggle to always get up on my feet and continue with what is ahead of me. Sometimes I want to cry but I feel so emotionless again; which is bad.

I watched V for Vendetta yesterday, Inglorious Bastard and today 2012... The pattern seems funny, all seem to link to one context which is somewhat political and truly they were. Truly, I am so amazed at how God can make me see into things...

Yet here I am... the hopeless person, where is the key to my hope?

[yawn]

ciao bella