A Not so Sugar Coated Life

Back in manila..

It never occurred to me that this feeling for returning to the home soil will not be desolated, I can see my stuffs just hanging out and I left them untouched and haven't stowed them away. Its 6 in the morning, I woke up around quarter to 6 to take a leak; the feeling of home still awfully the same. Reality is kicking in slowly and I'm getting fixated with all of it, I'm getting too overwhelmed with it and its not so easy.

I woke up from this slightly awkward dream and it was pretty disturbing I couldn't explain how it felt like but the person who confronted me with a revelation makes it even worst. He put up a face of confidence and directly say: "I'm going to find you a soulmate" (blah blah) the person in the dream left me far far behind already.

I need to start my diet, I feel uncomfortable with my size and appearance... I'm guessing my period is near thats why my hormones are changing again and so as my mood. I sense more change and I'm trying to want to believe in those unspoken events.

I want to cook and I want to bake, yet this weather makes me uneasy and cramped.