A Not so Sugar Coated Life

I saw a picture of Ben Barnes in GQ: pak! Super handsome!!! Insanely just insanely attractive, those nice long hair and charming facial features... oohlala!

These past few days are just plain random and disturbing, the boys in my dreams are hunting me... like their so real yet so unreal... it feels like a new sign, yet its not a sign... there's no conspiracy? Okey... let me try to plot it out, 4 years ago I had a relationship then had to cut it and delete the memories and that was summer I came back from a vacation.... had a new love that bloomed again.. then eventually died again, yes thats the soulful perfect word: DIED!
-now, here I am ended a relationship again and I'm coming home from a vacation again? so is it possible that I'm-- okey lets keep it into that kind of mystery, I don't want to make premature analysis. Besides, I should already know which are the best assets to keep a relationship fit and healthy then again I hope I wont forget my precarious strategies and would have to mobilize them if ever I'll get a chance. Oh fuck, what the hell am I saying again... there we go, all the intense brain is working again... crap crap crap, I'm so tired of this lame redundant thoughts, its giving me a headache... plus my nape continues to ache, I guess I'm going to crash now..

ciao bells