A Not so Sugar Coated Life

This curse, I don't understand it very well or I don't even know how exactly how its suppose to end but it feels as if though your just stuck there. Freedom or equity does not exist in the atmosphere, as if the air that you breathe is only a lease from an untouchable. Its been awhile since my last post again, I'm beginning to feel this aura of remiss that a lot of us are damned with.

The world continues to spin, yet a lot of people haven't still understood how they're life works out. Congratulations to me I think somehow I've gotten half way to my life surmise, I'm not dully educated as to compare with students who aces most of their required subjects; yet I'm still in mediocrity self assigning myself to be amidst in both competence and incompetence. I am bewildered by my ability to seek thorough detail in my life, I can't escape the fact that I remember a lot of aspects and could easily input and adjust it in my system. My world view has changed, and will constantly continue: adjusting and reconfiguring myself to be placed cleanly and discretely in the system. Its a shame I haven't been reading books lately, self educating myself is the only key how I can survive in this environment; like what I said constant adjustment constant reconfigure. I miss a lot embodiment in my said life, I don't feel any remorse for leaving them though it makes me cripple day by day.

Here I am, adjusted and reconfigured to last for a couple of months. Easily wounded easily healed. They've always say that you have your own "choice"

6 days until my return to manila, sanity is creeping over my shoulder. Yet another environment to be familiarize with again.. I want to scream to the world "I want my old life back" but what difference will it make, it continues to spin and pause for no one.