I guess the title says it all, it's pretty sad yet pleasant to feel that school is starting again. Half of me says yay to school but half of me says neigh for school, why you ask... Simple, every student's only grease to go to school is because of allowance second is friends and booze as for me I enjoy going to school because it gives me a chance to see my friends and my boyfriend . Especially now that we have a same schedule of dismissal (pretty excited though) half of me says no because of school works and pressure from lessons -I do appreciate some of the professors but some are just so dragging.. yawn. For the past weeks, I was able to unwind and relax though I wasn't much to progressive because all I did I guess was just to read and read and check mail and do some yoville which was my sort of a vice aside from my boyfriend. (wink) I did get to prepare some lunch and dinner with my uncle which were to be serve for my aunts and uncle.
Christmas break was pretty slow I guess, for the 3 weeks of vacation my boyfriend and I only met 3 times also. It's pretty sad though I guess its meant to be, it's been like that seeing each other only on weekends if there is time and money plus if his parents permits it. I guess this year will be his new start.. since he'll be permanently legal this year and I for one will be most certain to be more than legal this year.. sigh I don't want to hear that 21... ahh! the total horror of it, and for one I don't even know how to act 21- how do people act when there 21 anyway? (much oblivious here)
... I'm still waiting for my bear though, I guess I can't really drag the topic much to my boyfriend since money is pretty much a soft topic from now on. sob! I want to help him, I want to try to not be to whiney, but I don't how whiney is define now since my boyfriend compares whiney to almost similar words with it. (starting to feel like an understatement)
---My boyfriend visited me yesterday it was around 3-ish in the afternoon the weather was still nice and cool and breezy and it felt good on the skin again. So when he texted me, I instantly zoomed out of the room ~before he actually arrived he told me in the text that I need to go out as quickly as possible so I was like okey fine. So when he texted he was already outside and then I thought he was... well he wasn't... He hates the thought of me going out after a minute fAnyhoo, it wasn't much an issue, when he arrived I immediately hugged him and he was just being plainly a stubborn he would not go close to me.. so I told him can you go near me please? So I stood up and he said, much better you should have stood up in the first place. (whatever) I was just extremely happy that he was there and we spent the whole afternoon together, it was just sad that I had to cry twice that day because of his being him... When he declared that he needed to go home, I insisted on dropping him off somewhere so I drove him off to somewhere near where he can get a ride. The couple of minutes being spared for us was too dramatic inside my head... It made me more sad. Just like right now... (too much sadness whirling inside my head right now) The moment was there, and he had to go down the car... It wasn't a good- good bye! Because he didn't want to... err... I can't even remember if he kissed me. The trip back home was pretty lonely, and it turned nostalgic.. When I got back from home, I ate a little dinner and I was off to my room and good news as it was we still didn't have internet.. (the whole day we didn't have internet) He texted that he left his ring in our bathroom, so he did plus his plaid handkerchief which my mom said he left. Before sleeping we still texted and teased each other, then after a couple of messages I gave up and told him that im crashing already then he sent his last message and before I slept I took his handkerchief and placed in near my face (the smell was like: laundry detergent and a little familiar scent of his own) then I drift off to my sleep.
fast forward to present: It's my last night of freedom and I'll drive to school tomorrow and I just heard from Babita (schoolmate in college) that our CA midterms is near... this weekend ( I totally froze when she said that, as if a huge anvil smashed me) So as a closing note: boyfriend's not yet home and I found out in "ohnotheydidnt" that Robert Pattinson and Nikki Reed are going out. /ugh
Mood: frustrated as a foie gras
Music: crickets (total silence)
Christmas break was pretty slow I guess, for the 3 weeks of vacation my boyfriend and I only met 3 times also. It's pretty sad though I guess its meant to be, it's been like that seeing each other only on weekends if there is time and money plus if his parents permits it. I guess this year will be his new start.. since he'll be permanently legal this year and I for one will be most certain to be more than legal this year.. sigh I don't want to hear that 21... ahh! the total horror of it, and for one I don't even know how to act 21- how do people act when there 21 anyway? (much oblivious here)
... I'm still waiting for my bear though, I guess I can't really drag the topic much to my boyfriend since money is pretty much a soft topic from now on. sob! I want to help him, I want to try to not be to whiney, but I don't how whiney is define now since my boyfriend compares whiney to almost similar words with it. (starting to feel like an understatement)
---My boyfriend visited me yesterday it was around 3-ish in the afternoon the weather was still nice and cool and breezy and it felt good on the skin again. So when he texted me, I instantly zoomed out of the room ~before he actually arrived he told me in the text that I need to go out as quickly as possible so I was like okey fine. So when he texted he was already outside and then I thought he was... well he wasn't... He hates the thought of me going out after a minute fAnyhoo, it wasn't much an issue, when he arrived I immediately hugged him and he was just being plainly a stubborn he would not go close to me.. so I told him can you go near me please? So I stood up and he said, much better you should have stood up in the first place. (whatever) I was just extremely happy that he was there and we spent the whole afternoon together, it was just sad that I had to cry twice that day because of his being him... When he declared that he needed to go home, I insisted on dropping him off somewhere so I drove him off to somewhere near where he can get a ride. The couple of minutes being spared for us was too dramatic inside my head... It made me more sad. Just like right now... (too much sadness whirling inside my head right now) The moment was there, and he had to go down the car... It wasn't a good- good bye! Because he didn't want to... err... I can't even remember if he kissed me. The trip back home was pretty lonely, and it turned nostalgic.. When I got back from home, I ate a little dinner and I was off to my room and good news as it was we still didn't have internet.. (the whole day we didn't have internet) He texted that he left his ring in our bathroom, so he did plus his plaid handkerchief which my mom said he left. Before sleeping we still texted and teased each other, then after a couple of messages I gave up and told him that im crashing already then he sent his last message and before I slept I took his handkerchief and placed in near my face (the smell was like: laundry detergent and a little familiar scent of his own) then I drift off to my sleep.
fast forward to present: It's my last night of freedom and I'll drive to school tomorrow and I just heard from Babita (schoolmate in college) that our CA midterms is near... this weekend ( I totally froze when she said that, as if a huge anvil smashed me) So as a closing note: boyfriend's not yet home and I found out in "ohnotheydidnt" that Robert Pattinson and Nikki Reed are going out. /ugh
Mood: frustrated as a foie gras
Music: crickets (total silence)
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