A lazy sunday weekend

It feels quite unusual to feel this sudden heat stroke and uneasy-ness. The weather outside feels just quite fine, but inside this well lighted house feels this under normal stiff ness. I guess because the folks aren't here and its less crowded, but I've come to my conclusion that its not because of that. The oldies are out for an out of town trip at their cousins place; I don't really like the feeling of going out of town with this slight empty handed feeling for last week's encounter which was pretty much less compared to other weeks that I've endured.

I've already got my midterm grade, it was different it was more and more under special. Its becoming to be a generic event in my life... I got a one 5 and it was my culinary class. I feel dumb founded to get that grade, I know I'm going to start being serious with the lecture class- to start of I am serious about it. I just can't comprehend why I got a failing grade, I'm too tired to argue with other students or either to address it towards the professor. I need to pass the subject with a flying color; plus I'd have to take the "servsafe" exam one more time. Plus hearing from other students that I can't get a "culinary internship" unless I finish 5 more culinary classes, thats just simply too much to handle and absorb for the week. Last thursday was a useless day also, setting up a general assembly for org members which was less members arrived the following day I had to go a semi-hindrance meeting with the student council together with my fellow org officers. The following day was also a "Berlin's wall" went to NSTP class for nothing, the only productive thing I did was to accompany erica to the salon to get a haircut. I clearly remembered that I texted my boyfriend that morning saying to visit me that afternoon, on my way home I didn't get a text from him. I was too tired to argue nor address it towards him, when I got home it was so warm and an unpleasant feeling; as I arrived my mom didn't prepare me lunch I felt pretty frustrated and told her "where's the lunch" and she started telling me there was food and etc at the dinning table which was empty so I went back to my room and wept for a short time just so I could go to sleep off my frustrations... I wanted to spend the day with my boyfriend, but instead my hotheadedness overwhelm my irritance.

Currently: the weather inside this room is pretty warm. I'll be going out in a bit, maybe watch a pleasant DVD just to take off my head in a much relaxed atmosphere. I'm still waiting for my boyfriend to reply at my text. My nose is still stucked with goo and uneasy feeling. The warmness is burning my skin. I guess its one of those days...


Mood: couldn't think straight