It was too darn insane. This day was so muddled up, it felt like a thick soup of pea. It pretty much felt so heavy and eerie. As how our chef called it "terrible" it was a day of disappointment yet it was saved by my lover.
He was like a knight in shinning armor, originally he is more of a knight rather than a prince but I do see him as an adorable prince. Who wouldn't find their significant others as a prince? He was again very subtle and fast, as if my encounter with him was like a whisper from a wind caressing me softly that one blink of an eye he was then gone again.
How can I not forget this day, labeled as "terrible" was just not acceptable to me. I guess I am an competition freak but; I just couldn't understand this day except for the part for his reappearance. [oh sweet short happiness]
I felt like a fish out of water again, my mind was flying but my body was in tact {I wanted to think straight that morning till the end of the day}
--I was sure thankful enough that my anthropology professor didn't come in, I was plain relieved and relaxed. The thought of going home early and spending a short moment with my lover was just enough to temporarily soothe my "unexplainable void inside me" I couldn't think straight properly, I wanted but my brain was just malfunctioning but it was continuously feeding information over and over again. When I got home, I had a sudden rush of nerve storming simultaneously moving in one rhythm; the pattern was so sporadic that [I was feeling my brain crashing down and puking information and blood out of my mouth coming from my stomach] It was plainly insane. I told myself to "calm down and relax" but the more did it not cooperate, I wanted to rip myself open to actually turn myself inside out. I couldn't figure out what my mind, brain, heart was trying to tell me.
FYI: I did took 2 tablets of migrain pills to ease of the tension. My brain is trying to stretch my sanity, I just wanted to breathe lightly and release every bit of mixed emotion I had. I literally want to flush down every information that wasn't necessary at the moment.
Currently: I feel less disturbed, my lover fell tired and crash for the night. I so pity him, I know he too feels extra tired and he couldn't manage anymore of the heavy load; I feel his pain. I'm so thankful that he has gone through this and endured many things just to conquer something new. And for that I ethereally love him.
[Lover, if your reading this. I know your well aware there is indeed something wrong with me]
Thank you super collapse for making me calm my brain and helping me relax. :D
Now: waiting for the call from Michigan.
would they call me or not? XD
Planning: not to attend the first class. I am extremely tired, mentally and physically. My body's capacity can not endure anymore the martyr ness.
Mood: relieved and thankful. Is deeply caring for his lover.
He was like a knight in shinning armor, originally he is more of a knight rather than a prince but I do see him as an adorable prince. Who wouldn't find their significant others as a prince? He was again very subtle and fast, as if my encounter with him was like a whisper from a wind caressing me softly that one blink of an eye he was then gone again.
How can I not forget this day, labeled as "terrible" was just not acceptable to me. I guess I am an competition freak but; I just couldn't understand this day except for the part for his reappearance. [oh sweet short happiness]
I felt like a fish out of water again, my mind was flying but my body was in tact {I wanted to think straight that morning till the end of the day}
--I was sure thankful enough that my anthropology professor didn't come in, I was plain relieved and relaxed. The thought of going home early and spending a short moment with my lover was just enough to temporarily soothe my "unexplainable void inside me" I couldn't think straight properly, I wanted but my brain was just malfunctioning but it was continuously feeding information over and over again. When I got home, I had a sudden rush of nerve storming simultaneously moving in one rhythm; the pattern was so sporadic that [I was feeling my brain crashing down and puking information and blood out of my mouth coming from my stomach] It was plainly insane. I told myself to "calm down and relax" but the more did it not cooperate, I wanted to rip myself open to actually turn myself inside out. I couldn't figure out what my mind, brain, heart was trying to tell me.
FYI: I did took 2 tablets of migrain pills to ease of the tension. My brain is trying to stretch my sanity, I just wanted to breathe lightly and release every bit of mixed emotion I had. I literally want to flush down every information that wasn't necessary at the moment.
Currently: I feel less disturbed, my lover fell tired and crash for the night. I so pity him, I know he too feels extra tired and he couldn't manage anymore of the heavy load; I feel his pain. I'm so thankful that he has gone through this and endured many things just to conquer something new. And for that I ethereally love him.
[Lover, if your reading this. I know your well aware there is indeed something wrong with me]
Thank you super collapse for making me calm my brain and helping me relax. :D
Now: waiting for the call from Michigan.
would they call me or not? XD
Planning: not to attend the first class. I am extremely tired, mentally and physically. My body's capacity can not endure anymore the martyr ness.
Mood: relieved and thankful. Is deeply caring for his lover.
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