A Not so Sugar Coated Life

So here I am, back in the game! What do you know? I'm starting again I just finished another part of my life again, would you believe that? Its actually kind of scary now, your more prone to be coming one of the "bums" which I don't really want to be at the moment. :c I feel so lost, I left my laptop at my friend's place and its almost a week now. Poor baby not being used for a week. I was online in YM earlier and I saw my ex was online, though I was online I'm not sure if he noticed me or so; but it didn't matter to me much any more. His status was this I don't know whatever he's trying to talk about, but I've noticed that his more showy now compared to before. Bullocks! Who gives a damn, I'm just an observer if you may. Nonetheless, I cross my heart: I have no feelings for him any longer. :D I'm happy God took him off my head now, just a part of the past and nothing of concern. I'm still continuing to have those weird dreams, those perplex dreams that even I can't even fathom what irregular whatever they are "arbitrary mind fck" sorry, I'm just starting to feel uninterested in my dreams. The fact that they make me more tired when I wake up makes it even worst? On a regular basis, I pray before going to sleep, I enjoy talking to God the fact that He's just there and will tirelessly listen to your every whine and idea. Isn't He just the best :) Dear Lord, I love you so much and I am thankful for each passing day that you have given me, it is truly a blessing! Ciao amis