I enjoyed dinner tonight, it was my mom's birthday celebration, I had a Pan Fried Sole with buerre rouge *very french*. I bet she's happy that my dad is still here for her birthday and that surely made her day. I'm feeling this short tension and its just sad that my dad is having problems getting his passport back from the Canadian Embassy and he can't leave the country and all the bad things are laid out. Were quite freaked and still hoping that he can still make it, if not... it will be a problem... I guess God wants to send us a message regarding this event in our life... One is: patterns can be broken, second: plan ahead of time, in which procrastination is just not right..
(took out her earplugs and checked cellphone)

I feel quite sad, I know I have a happy family and well supported needs.. but when you really think about it- it gets tougher when you know your just alone in this battle.

Right at this moment, I feel that God wants me to feel alone right now

to keep myself from not doing any bad nuisances. 

{takes a deep breath}

When you think you've already stopped yourself

from being engulfed by life...

A series of events, what is universally acknowledge as the "uniform process"

I feel so sleepy and tired... 

Dear God,

I know that you are still and will be the only one who can guide me through this path, Lord God give me the grace and wisdom to understand you every passing day that I will be living upon. You are and will be the only being who can Judge me and who can Judge other people. I love you so much God!

ciao