A Not so Sugar Coated Life

Honesty is the first chapter in the book of wisdom. Thomas Jefferson 


I guess life gets complicated when we think of it as something complicated? I can't stop thinking about my future, every time my mind goes idle.. it instantly goes to this other page about my "Future".. Its pretty frustrating that I'm so fixated about my future. 


[currently listening to a ballad song]
The song has very strong emotions.. 


What should I do in order to avoid this thoughts again? Why do I always need an escape pod? 
should I:

• read a book?
• exercise?
• bake a muffin?
• sleep?
• initiate a conversation with friends?
• do the photo album project?

-> I miss someone singing me love songs... I do actually miss someone in particular, even though he sings randomly.. but his voice is pretty sweet in the ears, ahh.. here I go again?

random:
I like being malandi... I don't know why, but I don't really show it publicly that I enjoy doing it. But I'm planning to remake myself when I go back to manila ;)


oh: here's a photo I randomly saw of Nickhun

he is one good piece of meat :D 

nom nom.... I saw his body in one of his picture....

Why o why... 

haha!

seriously he is one irresistible good looking man? 

I read his bio earlier... and woah, he has gone a long way... multi-talented.

Oppp oppp... stop right there Lyleee....

back to reality?

Its actually hard to try to avoid temptation, but Hey! Look at me, I'm "almost" at the end of my race?.......

psh... 

my sweet decadent lover is waiting for me back in Manila...... Whoever you are!!! I hope its not... [murmurs to herself]

am... sleepy, yet its only 9:26pm in Denver... if its Keystone it might be like 7pm? haha!!! but here in East coast its 11:26pm... I hope I wont have nasty dreams again. I hate it when he goes to my dream? Come on... he is long gone? and he already moved on and has forgotten about me.. What gives?

Ciao bella