Unspoken Pact?

currently watching Aus Open, and Celic and Roddick's last match... 


deng I'm so dumbfounded at the moment... My mind just stopped, my thoughts just actually paused. [w-TFudge]

{is checking out her facebook}

I am so side tracked right now, I was suppose to write about my "pact" with someone... though its more of an unspoken pact, whats on my mind? the fact that I don't to even want to talk about the details of it, I'm guessing I would have to deal with it sooner or later. "Hope"-- 

the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best: to give up hope.

I was telling myself that maybe I could wait.. may be I shouldn't? When somebody tells you not to "await" or "assume"? should you believe the person? 

who calls for it?

Daym... I want to know... but like what I said earlier, its unspoken?

(commercial: Roddick lost)

he actually does have the bod.

(what else do you expect, from a tennis player?)

I saw my ex-crush's photos, daym.. He is just plain handsome, ugh. Its a shame we stopped talking. 

Thats the word, I can't "rely" on him... my ex-lover is relinquished from me, and I don't even know how to get him back. Or should I say: I may never get him back at all anymore.

Awh, will I grow old and prune skinned? and ALONE? no one to love me?

wah.

I hate this pact... I just really don't like it. I agree with God... I just need to listen to him.

:|

Will go ahead and sleep, not happy.