Passe avant, passe arrière

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means:
an advance or retreat by crossing one leg over the other; also passe' avant (forward cross), passe' arriere (backwards cross).

I'm again wistful, but I have great plans ahead of me that I have clearly thought about and will try my best to go about it. (I can smell orange scent in the air)

I'm ready! I'm going to cross decide on something, I wont do anything to break my vow or something that I have said before and a swore from someone. But I will have a new arrangement in my life, and this will be a different one..

I couldn't believe that even far away from my house, I still could not find my inner peace... Something is bugging me and I will have to find it soon before I crash and die. I'm not waiting for a miracle anymore, instead I will just have to deal on what I have at the moment. I will not get jaded with this things.. the anomalous feelings, and yes I would have to agree that I am getting accustomed with this independence in me. I'm afraid to say that I'm pushing myself to be somebody else now...

good bye..
L.A.S.S

P.S.
Ben Barnes is seriously gorgeous he makes me want to go n-a-k-e-d. 
spicy.