I wanted to cry the whole time: while watching New moon... it was so nice, and I feel sad the whole time... I remember tons of things... I miss watching the book at the same time, maybe I should read later... its so sad... huhu!
I miss him... I can't hide it anymore.. I know its bad to miss him... seriously, its not normal anymore and it always pains me to remember him and the memories.. I feel sad but I'm only human, I can't.
I seriously want to stop myself because I know its forbidden, but I don't know how to stop? God is doing a great job helping me be a good girl and always trying to accommodate my thoughts.
:( I feel sad.
I don't want to think about him, its not fair.. and will never be. Maybe I should sleep...
May be, I need a Jacob? but no.. I think I don't need no Edward nor a Jacob.
I want to get drunk and pass out and wake up with a major headache, I have 2 straight day offs and I have no one to go out with or whatever. :[ How sad...
My hands are starting to get dry, it feels weird when no ones cares for you, though I know God is. and I appreciate him very much.
I'm at the laundry room, sitting next to two guys at both my right and left side... quiet and waiting for clothes while: Me= Leeching for free internet... I'll head back to my room, walk... under the dark and star field sky.
=(
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