Hello October

Its now october, and who would believe thats its been such a fast "time"... Hearing my sister as if she's like talking to a dead animal that she's so pissed right now...

OH how time passes by so quickly, that I miss typing here in my blog. I would never have thought that having to type thoughts is a way to really clear your mind of. I miss him, I miss him big time... Its been such a bad week for the country... (can still hear her sister shouting and blah blah) she's ruining the my momentum. Jeez, its been a month... and I'm so fascinated with how were able to go along with this break up we did. It only goes to show that we are no longer vulnerable...

What made me smile and gives me a sign of hope is that: he's mom still wants me for him. Which I think, he's the only man I can truly love. (OH life) why can't you be at least be nice and sweet at times and not kill me. But God's been great, He is truly amazing for helping me get through this; especially this issue with this GUY 2... I would definitely would want to forget his guts. I really don't like why he can just pull up an act... LIAR! Damn fat liar...

YOU ARE "public enemy number 1" PERIOD

Well for starters, the only thing I could do is wait... and Pray that my Visa would get granted. I know this internship will really help me grow More as a person. Not only mentally but I believe that I will be able to bring many things from what I can learn from their culture. I'm a little bit afraid, but I know I can do this. I know I wont forget him, I know this will make me fall for him more, and would wait for the right time.

I'm so excited about the future, that I want to be ready all the time. The homily of the priest today was really interesting, it was about "divorce" and how your not suppose to separate with the love one you have chosen to get wed with. The first person and the last person whom I'd want to marry would still be the same, except if he really did move on with his life... Then again thats the only time I would change my mind. I'm not sad nor happy, but living this life that I have at the moment. I'd say I have to continue with it, believe on what God wants for me... His plans for me will be my destiny and my future.

Seek not for it will be given

I want to enjoy my life with whats in front of me now, I want to recreate myself to a better person, where that assigned person for me will fit perfectly with me. I never wanted to be tactless, I never wanted to be treated like a queen, all I wanted was to be taken cared of. I never saw FLAWS as a hindrance from liking or yet Loving someone. I am also made with flaws...

Oh October, your the last month I'll be spending time here in Manila... If ever I'd be successful in this trip of mine. I want to be ready, I want to embrace this opportunity that I have, I don't want to regret it because I know after this GREAT things will come my way. Because I believe in the Lord my Saviour. He will truly guide me in my journey.

I want to spend my october: in a good way, happy way, exciting way or either more of a GOOD surprise way.

God I will not stop loving you, I will Continue my faith and to love you more and more.