I wanted to cry awhile ago because of anger -- my younger brother was being so selfish and inconsiderate. I went to his room and told him I'm going to use his P.C. because our ate was using my laptop. So I asked my brother while he was playing with his PS2; so why is this turned off? So I turned it on and wait for it to start up, so basically I waited and he suddenly say that he was going to sleep and he was like shoo-ing me off and telling me to use our mom's P.C. at the den. And so I told him, it's far and I'm going to be fast and just search for something at the web. HE WAS SUCH an aohole that he insisted me to our mom's P.C. --so when his P.C. finally opened up to window, he told me it wont work because of the stupid dashboard of his was not working at all. So I told him with a tone, fine I'm going out and THANK YOU for letting me use your P.C. and he was like your WELCOME. I was about to burst in cry because of anger, honest to God and to all the reader; I am a very sensitive person, I don't like the fact that I want do a very simple thing and someone just pops out and hinders me from doing it. It's like striping me into tiny bacon bits.. Yes it feels that terrible. ]It wanted me not to talk to my brother and not listen to what he will be telling me[ I know his going to rest, I just wanted to use his P.C. and I wont be noisy and everything. Arrogant men makes a bad husband and I know it.
After getting out of his room, I went back to the girls room and my sister was asking what happend? and I replied to her he is such a brat and selfish. Then I turned on the TV to make me relax and then afterwards my sister said she was done using my laptop. I went online and I was invisible for a minute or so and I waited if my boyfriend had any offline messages for me. but heck none, and I was pretty much disappointed so I go hey to him and he said hunny, I waited for so long. Then I told him how come you didn't text )even though I knew he doesn't have load I still asked him( but I didn't go through with him the issue about I don't care if you don't have load, you should buy [duh?]. It's like if I open up that topic to him he would just say that he doesn't have money and etcetera etcetera. I'm so tired of that crap, if ever I would tell him that. He would just say sorry I'm a worthless boyfriend, and it's my fault. (that's his kind of thing) I know I'm sounding such a b.tch -- I'm tired of hearing those same lines. I swear I never wanted to confront him with something, his like a girl who is like when you tell him something and he would cry because it's too damn true. I sometimes get fed up with what's he's been telling me. (the reasons, I mean).. it's like an old jukebox playing the same old track all over again. I mean: I can't stop time and wait for him to totally grow up and be in a same state of mind like mine. I am having a hard time slowing down for him, and he is probably having a hard time catching up with me.
Going back to the chat: after I replied -whatever and you don't have to explain he then said "okey, I thought it would be a good night" then he left like a girl and walked out. What pisses me is it's like hello? ugh. woh? )the feeling: making me look stupid( In a way I didn't want to leave an offline saying his an asshole for leaving me and his such a cry baby and all that jazz. Plus I didn't send him a text message nor call him, I am so sick of like calling him and asking him what the hell you freaking left me and etc etc. That S.O.S [Small old shit] is driving me nuts and I am so tired, and plus I was not in the mood to compromise and withdraw what I said. Probably mr.knight in shining armor is probably too sensitive that he's competing with my sensitivity. I told him before that I didn't want an über sensitive b-o-y.friend --it's so driving me insane thinking about this all over again. You know, I don't really know if his changing. He would always tell me: NEXT time I'm going to change... it's like how many next times already. I am not a b.tch I am just too old for this S.O.S and my feelings, my gut, my heart is screaming out loud What's happening to me?
P.S.
I don't need a cry baby, I need a companion in life who can fully support me when I am in the pits and who could spontaneously and continuously make me happy. Yes I am a princess, all girls should be treated like a Princess. Torturing the heart is not healthy. And yes, I know we are all humans and we commit mistakes but it
doesn't necessarily mean all the time.
Warning: This blog is not intended to put a hatred on my boyfriend, I just wanted to let my head speak for itself. Yes having a boyfriend is not always happy, it's a formula of happiness and sadness= a good relationship.
>>Princesse de Etoile<<
After getting out of his room, I went back to the girls room and my sister was asking what happend? and I replied to her he is such a brat and selfish. Then I turned on the TV to make me relax and then afterwards my sister said she was done using my laptop. I went online and I was invisible for a minute or so and I waited if my boyfriend had any offline messages for me. but heck none, and I was pretty much disappointed so I go hey to him and he said hunny, I waited for so long. Then I told him how come you didn't text )even though I knew he doesn't have load I still asked him( but I didn't go through with him the issue about I don't care if you don't have load, you should buy [duh?]. It's like if I open up that topic to him he would just say that he doesn't have money and etcetera etcetera. I'm so tired of that crap, if ever I would tell him that. He would just say sorry I'm a worthless boyfriend, and it's my fault. (that's his kind of thing) I know I'm sounding such a b.tch -- I'm tired of hearing those same lines. I swear I never wanted to confront him with something, his like a girl who is like when you tell him something and he would cry because it's too damn true. I sometimes get fed up with what's he's been telling me. (the reasons, I mean).. it's like an old jukebox playing the same old track all over again. I mean: I can't stop time and wait for him to totally grow up and be in a same state of mind like mine. I am having a hard time slowing down for him, and he is probably having a hard time catching up with me.
Going back to the chat: after I replied -whatever and you don't have to explain he then said "okey, I thought it would be a good night" then he left like a girl and walked out. What pisses me is it's like hello? ugh. woh? )the feeling: making me look stupid( In a way I didn't want to leave an offline saying his an asshole for leaving me and his such a cry baby and all that jazz. Plus I didn't send him a text message nor call him, I am so sick of like calling him and asking him what the hell you freaking left me and etc etc. That S.O.S [Small old shit] is driving me nuts and I am so tired, and plus I was not in the mood to compromise and withdraw what I said. Probably mr.knight in shining armor is probably too sensitive that he's competing with my sensitivity. I told him before that I didn't want an über sensitive b-o-y.friend --it's so driving me insane thinking about this all over again. You know, I don't really know if his changing. He would always tell me: NEXT time I'm going to change... it's like how many next times already. I am not a b.tch I am just too old for this S.O.S and my feelings, my gut, my heart is screaming out loud What's happening to me?
P.S.
I don't need a cry baby, I need a companion in life who can fully support me when I am in the pits and who could spontaneously and continuously make me happy. Yes I am a princess, all girls should be treated like a Princess. Torturing the heart is not healthy. And yes, I know we are all humans and we commit mistakes but it
doesn't necessarily mean all the time.Warning: This blog is not intended to put a hatred on my boyfriend, I just wanted to let my head speak for itself. Yes having a boyfriend is not always happy, it's a formula of happiness and sadness= a good relationship.
>>Princesse de Etoile<<
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